Thank You For The Chocolate

I must say that I was filled with joy to hear these words come out of the mouth of my almost 2 1/2 year old daughter. I have been stationed in Monterey, CA away from her and my beautiful wife from thanksgiving until 19 Dec. A lot, and I mean a lot has changed. She has grown to the point where she can simply listen to what i say, and repeat it to the point where she understands what I am saying. I was able to travel home the 19th but i didn't officially get into the arms of my loved ones until about 1a.m. on the 20th. Then began my wonderful vacation with my family. It has been the most rewarding time for me of all of 2009. I am so proud of my little McKenzie and all that she has accomplished with and without me, with the help, care and understanding from my amazing wife Natalie. Anyway, one night Mckenzie, Natalie, Stephanie and I were all in the kitchen sitting down at night. Steph had an orange chocolate thing. Kenz kept saying chocolate! chocolate! please! please! I looked at her and i asked her to say, say thank you for the chocolate stephy. and she did, later that night she decided to say thank you for everything. Thank you for the milk, thank you for the juice, thank you for the gum, thank you for the garbage. It was such an overwhelming feeling to be noticed by my daughter in a respectful manner enough for her to want to learn from me.
On that note: Christmas was Hawaii this year, AND telling everyone what we are having for our second child. Well one of the most exciting experiences was going to the doctors with nat on tue the 22nd of December for her 20 week ultra sound. Natalie was ok with my finding out by myself and telling her as well as the rest of her family on xmas, which actually turned out xmas eve... she became impatient. hee. hee... Anywho, I came up with this brilliant idea to go to salt lake and buy an outfit for the correct gender and have it wrapped so natalie could open it in front of everyone. So that is what we did. The majority of the people in our family swore it was a boy as well as Natalie herself. But, she wanted a girl more than anything. I had this greater feeling as soon as i got back to Utah that it was a girl. Addison Kate Howell, that is and will be her name.
The flight to Hawaii: It was hectic! not the flight, but the last minute arrangements. We weren't able to all sit together so me and Mckenzie sat alone on the right side of the plane 21a and 21b. Kennie sat in her car seat next to the window, and i sat in the aisle. We had a wonderful flight together. Now I am in Kuaui with my family. Today we went to Costco and the grocery store. We also took our princess to the pool. She loves the water!

The Bee Hive

Busy, Busy, Busy. This week would have turned out to be a disaster if i were to react to tasks like i usually would. There was no way to simply accomplish all the tasks at hand on any specific day or by a specific time. In fact, I had to do things little by little each day. I have been thrown out of the loop with my regular schedule, as expected. I haven't been to the gym since saturday.. I know odd right? I have been in the process of packing up my house off post so that i can live on post in the careerist barracks. Translation, I was renting an appartment off post for like 1300.00 a month. I was a two bedroom, one bath and one rediculous excuse for an appartment. It was like half the size of first floor in my townhouse in Ogden and 1.5 X the cost. Anyhow, the barracks are set up like a hotel, but with expected to have two to a room: i lucked out and got one to myself! WooHoo! On top of that, I finished taking our fifth out of nine tests for the french language. I recieved a good report, i received an A- in speaking, B in listening (the hardest, and best grade i have recieved in this category), B+ in reading and a B+ in vocab and grammer. My cumulative has stayed about the same at a 3.3 which is a B+ average. Not too shabby. It will keep me in the award zone for when I graduate, APRIL 1, 2010. Also with moving, I have had to get christmas shopping done, exchange things for the "right" sizes, pay bills... Set up transportation to pick up my house to ship back home, Take care of stupid paperwork for big ARMY well you could understand. I start leave tomorrow at noon, but dont get home until saturday at like umm. midnight to sunday. Hawaii is on the agenda for christmas for the fam and I. I cant wait. ALSO, I get to find out what the gender of our next child is either on the 22nd of december, or if my wife hates me, i'll have to wait until christmas upon our arrival to Kuai. Tomorrow is a half day, I have to give an oral speech to the class about the traditions of christmas in Quebec "En Francais, Bien Sur" and then at 10:45 I have lunch, At 12:00 i am a "free" man, well from duty until the 3 of Jan. We found out today that after we return we have 4 more tests, we have 2, 4day weekend (one in jan from the 15 to 18, one in feb from the 12 to 15) and that we stop learning the language the first week of march to prepare for the test that matters DLPT 5!!! I will return to my lovely "home" town by the 3rd of April, and then on the 10th I have to report to Draper for WLC: Warrior's Learning Course from the 10th to the 24th. It is required for E6, but it wouldn't hurt to have it done before i receive E5 next year. After that, baby is due and we get to live in our house again. Hopefully I get to stay in the US for a bit before i go overseas. I know i am going to morrocco for 2 weeks, and i have to go to Goodfellow Air Force Base in Texas for my reclass as a "Crypto-Linguist/French" And maybe i'll go to the police academy and work on finishing my bachelors in science. However, I found out today that for my specific job in french, if i were to go active duty they would station me in Germany and ALL my deployments would be to AFRICA, Both places I would be able to take my family. Highly considering this option, after my bachelors. after that well, warrant officer school and FBI. That is all that is on my mind for now.

After thought

Step after step you live this imaginative state,
breath to breath you crave what your mind can't take.
Into a circulating massacre your heart is born,
and born again is not a mistake.
A pattern in which we cannot defy.
It is more of an insurance that one my soon, rely.
Cursive is written so perfectly clear,
the lines so delicate with the curves so sincere.

Im not really sure why this came out. To me it is beautiful, without much meaning a few words could flow from the tips of my fingers. I regret the fact that i have chosen to not write for so long now that i believe that i have become a little out of sync. I know in time i will be in touch with my inner self one again. Like a rebirth of spontaneous thoughts that are ever so eager to be thought of. To me this more of a beginning, an awakening. Another chance to find myself and what was lost from the good that slowly faded along with all the bad.

A Note

I am learning how to use this. I believe that i have spent way too much time trying to make it look nice, so i quit. My computer is driving me crazy. First, I have only had it for maybe 9 months now and it is already problematic. The screen from time to time will start to get all fuzzy, and my hard drive has 0% memory available. Just Great. I really like the song Vanilla Twilight, if fact I am listening to it right now. I felt it was necessary to create some new playlists on itunes. I made one called Remembrance and one called Relativity. I have always been able to relate how I feel to music that i listened to, to make sense of what i was trying to deal with inside my head. Therefore, the playlist relativity was created. Remembrance is mostly songs that had significance to me at some point in my life. Here are the songs for the lists.

Remembrance:----------------Relativity:
Feeling-------------------------This Sweetness
Sorrow-----------------------Here's Your Letter
We're All To Blame-------------Letters To God
Jigga What/Faint-------------------Firefight
The Quiet Things-------------There's No Solution
Vindicated---------------------Ok I Believe You
The Mixed Tape---------------Apologize(Remix)
You're Not Sorry-----------------Philharmonic
Run--------------------------------Wannabe
23---------------------------You Belong With Me
I Miss You----------------------Drugs Or Me
Angela Baker-------------------Let It Enfold You
Sit Still----------------------What Hurts The Most
Dance Inside--------------------Lying From You
Only One----------------------------Numb
Where'd You Go-----------------Vanilla Twilight
Where Is My Mind--------The Priest and The Matador
A Boy Brushed Red---------Stay Together For The Kids
Seven Years--------------------How Does It Feel
The Taste Of Ink----------------Poetic Tragedy
-------------------------------Another Heart Calls

Today It Begins

I will officially have this up and running from now on. I highly doubt anyone will really, and truly follow, look, read or search for my blog or anything to do with my name for that matter. So, This shall be somewhat of a journal with the expectancy that not very many people will read these little posty thingys. So there you have it. Ummm... I am Learning French at DLI in monterey,ca. I am really good at it also, not to be too prideful but it's hard not to be. Some people take classes in high school or in college, and this i promise you: It is nothing remotely compared to life here at DLI. I study 10 hours a day for 6 months straight with the expectation to be at a native speaking level. Intense! I know. Other than that, I am really fixated on being something extrordinary in life. Haven't figured it out, but somewhere on the lines of fbi, cia, still water. Something to do with power, intelligence and most importantly respect. These things are to come because if i am one thing, it is that i am Driven. It is my natural instict to drive toward my goals and reach them at any and all costs. I guess there will be a lot to come with this blog. I have so much to say, not just to everyone or of everyone but to and about myself. There is so much you can learn about oneself just by writing. I have always found it fascinating, but seem to lack the time to write. Bonne soiree de Monterey. Je vais aller pour l'instant. .howell