Coincidence

I went into a gas station last week to withdraw some money that I was going to give to a friend to take care of something for me. As i approached the ATM i noticed that a 20 dollar bill was already sticking out. There wasn't a receipt nor anyone near by. The thoughts to return the money to the store had occurred to me as well as asking all the people pumping gas into their car. I decided not to bother and to take the money myself. Later that night I ran into a bum at a grocery store. He was an older, tall, black man with dreads pushing a cart full of whatever seemed to make him happy enough to haul around. With him, he had a dog. I approached him and asked him what he was doing for dinner, if he had any plans. He didn't, I had two fives in my pocket from change from the 20 i found. I gave him the money and told him to get something for his dog also. Later that night, i lost 20 dollars of the money that i withdrew myself. I believe that i was supposed to give the bum the whole 20. Next time I find money, I will attempt to do the right thing. Karma will ALWAYS suffice in the end.

Water Boiling

There are some things in this world that can simply not be prevented. One may plan a pre-emptive strike, or divised, do not run into me alone. Karma will suffice with or without the law. In the end I will have obtained my justice. If i had my way, none of this would have happened. I would have been able to stop the events that occured. I am a personage of justice, or so I find myself today. I believe in what must be corrected, whatever the cost. To me, It matters not who or what you are. It is not significant for wrong doings to be let go in part with family. There are fine, unwritten laws that need to be recognized. I have been let down too many times in life to forgive anymore. It is not required of me to turn a cheek. I can see things for what they are. I am training for the day of confrontation. I will solve this with my own intentions, on my own terms. Sometime freight trains cannot be stopped. I am not an ignorant person, perhaps arrogant and a bit bold at times. I will stick with my feelings and thoughts for the moment. Disappointment and anger lingers inside my soul.

The Storm

There are times in life where one can find them self lost and insecure. At such times, one may become more aware of the surrounding in which they are found in the center . In this case, the truth can be revealed in the most insensitive ways. Words fall from the sky as the anger sweeps through the clouds. Twirling together they become intertwined and the mixture turns into blackness, into a vortex of collision. The air thickens, eyes become widened, ears more open to hear the faintest sound through the fields in the distance. The Bridge that is relied on so dearly starts to buckle. The ties at both ends begin to unwind. Lightning strikes it, sparks fly, the fire is started. Swirling, unbalanced, cruelty is unveiled and the colors start to show. Comprehension fills your mind as you look in disgust. Moments later the safety turns to ash, the embers slowly turn to coals as the winds carry the remains off into the distance. All that is left are the dried tears upon the faces involved and a memory that will be remembered.

Failure To Comply

There are people in this world who I just cannot respect, stand nor trust. I really thought there was the slightest chance that I could possibly enjoy myself this whole trip. As far as the first sentence, Well lets just say that there are members of my wife's family who I absolutely dispise and would rather live without for the remainder. I have watched people take utter advantage of one's who were dear to me, I was taken advantage myself, I have watched the tears of my wife drop in pure sadness and frustration, I have witnessed my daughter scream and cry at at the anger in the air amidst those who are victims of the gasoline. The fire is burning, and I dont believe that this one will go out anytime soon at all. Tomorrow I part for my destination, leaving my girls behind to deal with the aftermath alone. I wish there were more I could do at this point. I am not really a man of letting things go without me saying things but this time my tongue is raw from gnawing and biting on it. There are things that need to change or history will repeat itself within one's own family. This will continue later.