Darkness

I am so lost. I am wandering. I am looking for a way. I am lost. I dont feel. The answers are lost. I want to be angry, I want to be sad. I feel empty, but that is not an emotion. I don't understand how this came to be. I don't want to. I am scared, I don't want to die. I don't want any part of me to die. I fear some already is, and will be. Everything I am doing, why? Darkness.

Its not easy

It isn't what i want to do nor what i regret to do, It is what I have to do for the sake of living. The choices that I'm not about to make may change the tides forever. The ripple effects could last, and the last thing i need to do is to overcome what is going to pass. I swallow my pride, look up. Today i realize that the challenge is before me, and there isn't a thing to do but to overcome and surpass these obstacles that taunt my every being within myself. I ask of you, patience. I need of you, love. I demand of you, trust. I promise you, my life.